Sin

God always does things on purpose. One of the best lessons that He has taught me is that He does not "need" me to do or say anything for Him. He chooses to use me because He "wants" to. And, how He typically works in my life is via example. (This is not my preferred method of instruction.)

D180 is heading into a series called, "Trash Talk." This series is going to be about sin and what it does to our lives. And, wouldn't you know that it would be this week that I was tested with some of the most awful fleshly desires I have ever had. Some I was able to conquer; and others I fell.

It is a very scary thing to grow numb to conviction. I am not saying that I have reached that point, but being much more convicted this week about things, I realized how important the Holy Spirit is in convicting us of our sin. I do not want to be complacent. I desire to grow, and I know that God can do a great work as I respond to the conviction of the Holy Spirit.

God is just. Sometimes, we forget that although His mercy and grace is ever-present, He will judge and discipline us as a father would do. God spoke to me about a issue I was struggling with, and He told me that this was my last chance. Some would argue that God's grace will cover me. And, although that is true, I am actually tring to move forward- not continue going around the mountian over and over again. It is OK to accept that fact that God loves you so much that He might actually discipline you when you need it. I am fearful of what He will do should I choose to fall in that area again. But, I am confident that I can conquer this. I can do all things through Him. He is my strength.

This past week has had some major down points. These down points are not all revolving around sin or struggles. I had some obstacles at work to get through, and I was battling a cold at the same time. I am looking forward to a great week ahead, though.

I am taking 150 students on a retreat this weekend. I am not prepared, so the next few days will be slammed with that. My birthday is this week.

Time flies.

I have been reading Proverbs lately, and I am realizing why it is so important to have those Scriptures rooted in my heart. There is so much wisdom in that book!

Lord,

You never cease to amaze me. Your sovereignty is never to be questioned. Illuminate my life so that I may walk in the light. Then, use me as You teach me. I desire to be used of You. I realize that it is You who does the work. I am your vessel.

Relying on Your strength this week,
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